Surrealism : " characterized by fantastic imagery and incongruous juxtapositions; "a great concourse of phantasmagoric shadows"--J.C.Powys; "the incongruous imagery in surreal art and literature" [syn: phantasmagoric, phantasmagorical, surrealistic] 2: resembling a dream; "night invested the lake with a dreamlike quality"; "as irrational and surreal as a dream" [syn: dreamlike]

i think its fair to say that my life has been filled with many windows of ethereal surrealism.  The after party back to earth is, not the best place to be.  Thats when thoughts start catching up, the over-analytical worrier in me starts to resurface. its like a fckin evolving strain of a virus that will stop at nothing. its too deeply embedded in me. 

De-fogging and unraveling the whole picture - usually negative. Or is it just a state of mind?

Thats really just me articulating the slightest hint of frustration i feel this very instance. Enough fckin sappy shit dudes.

On a different note, still sappy ...  :

anw, immigration is giving me a hard time to stay here. its been a concern.  we'll see what happens. what awaits my fate when such a decision is made, will be dealt when the time comes.  Nevertheless, i have enjoyed every moment, every person, every experience here in melbourne... It has been nothing but a really eye opening, mind expanding, meaningful experience. Now now. ive been pretty good and tried to stay as objective and positive and not get emotional about it.  im not allowing myself to, i cant.

have still been partyin every weekend, last 2 weekends a little harder than usual, intoxication was accidental.. really. but much needed intoxication it was. and well enjoyable... hehehhehhee...

me folks are living in HK now, will be heading to sydney next weekend for work.(provided im not shipped off in a matchbox yet by then.) hahahha... its quite a funny image, im picturing : me in a matchbox with 2000 other refugees, including the fugees, in a matchbox, like we got shrunk or sumthin, and they just post us via Australian Air Express back to wherever, and then enlargen us again. god im so fckin delusional right now.

im outtie.

hey peeps. feeling kinda average today. drained. just drained. its that very feeling, when u are down but dont know what's bothering you.  I wonder if i will ever be able to figure that one out. gonna take some time.

immigration department is being a pain in the ass to me now. im gonna try to look like im deep into concentration now. at "work"

seems like no one blogs anymore...

well. i have officially entered the working world... (bo.. ring!!)

im actually bored shitless at work now, thats why i decided some degree of venting would do me good... anyhoo.... got a job, got some ppl to sponsor me a business visa, which is all good, got a car, am on the road.. watch out peeps!! .... all good in theory.. but still, Human nature dictates you to feel otherwise.... still feeling incontent with what i have on my plate.... just the delayed shock of finally being in the working world i guess... in a job which is a poor justification of my years of study, if there was ths slightest sign of the element of joy in my work, i would have at least, a trade off to offer myself.

Seems like the blog is often an arena for my whining and whinging.. i shall try to blog one day when im happy. that unlikely to happen as when im happy im too busy at it.

Moved too..... no longer in toorak, no longer near the city, its suburbia, not at its best, but i have the boys by my side... which is such a blessing...   Our little family unit has proven to bring me emotional support, a supply of laughs, and it means i can bake and cook and not have to eat it all by myself.....  Im happy and content in this dimension of my multifaceted life.

STILL partyin.. not partyin as much, now that i am a responsible courteous driver on the road, i no longer have the luxury of ending up in a gutter, with someone holding my hair back while my liver overworks itself to expel the toxins i feed into my body for a short term delusional high...

arhhh... only 25 minutes to kill till i get to fuck off.

gosh its been awhile.... just very quickly.. im now working with peter alexander (yummy PJs), graduated (thank god!!) still very frustrated with the general state of affairs (regarding my PR status here in melb). mum and baby ayriane came here for my convo, and are leaving tommorow....

other than that, big highlight last mth was me gaining yet another digit on my age figure. sigh. oh well... anyways..... my birthday celebration this year spanned across 3 parties.... hehehhe.. one pre-birthday partay night at odeon, good ol fashioned drunk i was that night..not a good sight. not a great feeling. but definitely one to remember.... there was this one particular bin at crown id stay away from! i had a balll anyhow!!(thanks buba!!) everyone was soooo sweet to come that night!! : )  on my birthday itself, i gave myself a birthday pressie which caused me a teensy bit of pain and a lot of pleasure.. yet another very markable event that was, and it will most definitely stay with me for life !! special thanks to max...hahahha... ;p  and later on that day jess darling organized a surprise bday din din for me :), and the party carried on at f4 for drinks and a lil bit of a drink n dance there.. and post bday partay was held at tims, and this was a good ol fashioned barby with dear friends.....

think im kinda over the whole blogging thing now. hmmm..... im outtie. some new pics are available on my friendster profile anw.

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God i cant believe its already the final week of uni. tommorow's my last official day at uni.. sad sad. 5 yrs of uni life. oh well.

exam on monday, im fucked. have no idea yet what this subject's about... til then, im still swamped with assignments.. good luck to me!! im still playful, still goin out, but think i might just give partyin a rest this weekend.. *fingers crossed* ... im too playful for my own good sometimes...

Heaps have happened since i last blogged... where do i even start... lets just say what goes up must come down.

had my krispy kreme fix !!! max went to sydney last week and brought me 1/2 a dozen!! :) yeay! gettin soooo fat now man.... eating non stop!! its the exam stress .. i think. damnit. summer's comin up. have to exercise!!

gotta get some work done now... good luck to everyone with their finals!! :)